Thanks :)
There are so few Doctors here that will even touch chronic pain, let alone chronic pelvic pain. At this particular pain clinic, the only in my city, there was 1 Doctor. There is another one currently in the OBGYN unit at this hospital that has expressed intense interest but now there is red tape involved, and in my province that can be a very big obstacle. So for now, it doesn't seem an option for the near future.
To be honest, I don't know how much of my trouble is the pelvic floor vs. the sphincter. Since I won't got there, nor let my physio (out of fear and past awful experiences/outcomes) I am at a stand still I suppose. I am at the point where I am getting by and don't know if I can justify taking the chance at a major setback. Since the fissure was caused by letting someone back there in the first place I am just not willing to go there, yet. I had a physio tear me once back there too, a few years back. But perhaps the internal sphincter needs dilation. Just can't go there for now...