I may have all these problems
Fissure/Hemmoroids/NerveDamge/Muscle Damage down there because my bowel movements don't work well. i don't even feel a definite need to go to the bathroom. I've just taken myself to the bathroom in the morning and i do, but it takes concentration and it's not the same as it was when i was normal. i've had this thing near 2 months.
including deep pain and stuff.
I mean i'm living with it. But i miss when i used to do Bowel movements easy. I would just feel the urge and then i just go and it drops almost as soon as i went to the bathroom. Now, i no longer have that experience. Now i just have a vague sensation..and then i just go in the morning and try and do...i have to close my eyes and concentrate on being really relaxed...and eventually i feel something coming.
But then it stops but i know there's more.. so i have to again concentrate deeply to try to bring out more stuff.
and then i do enough and then i just calculate thatt that's the end of it so then i get up and walk out. Then i feel kinda weird sore. a new weird feeling i didn't used to have before.
ANd also the deep pains and stuff are scary. and painful.
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Anyways, what i'm saying is this is abnormal. But at least i'm not dying and if i have to live with this forever, it sucks but at least can i live with it?
I'm gonna get checked for the deep pain (have dr appointment) and stuff which comes at random times and the bleeding on the toilet paper but
i don't know if the doctor will be able to get my Bowel System to how it was before.
Anyone out there with Sudden Experiences of losing their normal bowel movements and health? how do you adjust to accepting this new way of living?
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Something that helps me so far is to remind me of how other people were also normal and then their life changed suddenly. Like wheel chair people and people with head traumas or spine injuries and paralysis, who used to be totally normal and now have to use catheters and stuff to go to the bathroom. And they keep living. So i gotta be strong like them and just keep living. i guess.
I'm male , 30+ year old.