Hi all,
Life is good, the sun is out, my wife has great food on the stove and my arse burns.
its seems to burn/sting alot lately, the fissure, which is and has been mostly healed has split abit, I think. hurts. no discharge, no blood, doesn't really even hurt when I go to the bathroom but then burns for hours after words. I put zinc oxide on it, seems to take the sting away a bit but then the cycle repeats. don't see overly tight down there, the thing is just there.
so you may ask, erik, what is the dilemma.
I am always scared to go to the dr. as I am in the military, like my job and start to worry (read freak out) will they find something ominous and kick me out.
my "priority pyramid" as I call it is this:
1. health
2. Family & Friends
3. Work
at least i try to keep it that way. I want to see a doc to see if I can get another CRS consult so a CRS can take a look and tell me why my fissure/anal papercut/ rectal terror seems to want to continue to burn like crazy. should i endure...thinking this pain could be my "new normal" or should i get things checked out, try to conquer this plight.
i set up an appointment for monday at 10am. 1/2 of me says go, 1/2 of me says just live with it.
torn in more ways than one.
thanks for any input.
means more to me than you know.
erik.