Well, after all the drama I did go ahead with my surgery this morning. I don't remember anything about the procedure itself. I woke up soon after it was over and was quickly out the door and on my way. Stopped on the way home at a restaurant, feeling no pain at that point, and a while later to my surprise I had a pretty heavy bleeding episode, left a puddle of blood in my chair. Went home and got into a hot bath, where I stayed for an hour or so, got out, then suddenly started bleeding quite a bit. I put on a pad and some fresh underwear and had them completely soaked with blood within 10 minutes or so, got up from the couch and left a puddle there too. Called the dr.'s office, nurse said that hot soaks encourage bleeding, advised me to stay out of the tub and to use gauze and an icepack. Bleeding did stop after half an hour or so, now I stopped the ice and I'm getting a little blood, but not flowing like earlier. Pain has started--a stinging feeling, feels like the right side of my sphincter has been cut open, along with a kind of aching that radiates from there. Left side, which is where I think the fissure was, feels good. I remember talking with the dr. before the procedure, asked her about pain and recovery and she assured me it would be very easy and fast. I hope she's right...
Anyway I'll update as it develops. Thanks (I think) to all you who helped me get the nerve up to do it!!