Hey there,
I was hoping you wouldn't use the tinactin! There are so many home remedies online that are worthless and not worth your time! I'm pretty certain if any of them worked then no one would need surgery or the other ointments that are made for fissures. I know how desperate a fissure can make you though! I had a whole bag filled with butt meds hoping I would find the cure
Please don't be sad. You are not doomed to a life of nothing but fiber, I'm sure:) You may just have IBS or something that is manageable. The key is finding what amount of fiber and supplements work for you. None of us are the same and unfortunately we have to see for ourselves.
It's imperative that you not PUSH or STRAIN while having a BM!!! This will surely cause things to get worse with a fissure, not to mention all the other problems you can get with hems!!
If your sphincter is in spasm, it will clench and not allow your poop to come out! There is nothing you can do but relax until it will let that happen. The softer you can make the poop, the easier it will relax and pass. Take the warm baths religiously to try and settle the spasms down until you can get the ointments for the fissure from a CRS. You need to keep the water warm and stay in for atleast 20 minutes. I would take it longer myself and atleast 3x's a day.
Don't get down on yourself! Nobody is to blame or ever expects a fissure. Most people don't even know what they are or how they happen! I know I didn't.