I saw my GP today because although my appointment with the specialist is only a couple of weeks away, I’ve had an increase in pain and bleeding and I’ve also developed a lump, which seems to swell up after a BM. I thought it was probably a haemorrhoid but then managed to half-convince myself I’ve got an abscess (I should really stop consulting “Dr” Google! :roll: ) so I thought it would be best to get it checked out for my peace of mind.
Anyway, it’s neither! I now have 2 fissures. Although I’m thankful it isn’t an abscess, I’m still feeling rather sorry for myself. The doctor mentioned the lump but I don’t know if he explained what’s causing it (I get so overwhelmed and embarrassed when getting examined that I seem to lose the ability to comprehend what is being said to me!) I have been prescribed Xyloproct ointment, which I’ve had before.
I’m so glad I found this place because, although I can talk to my boyfriend about all of this, I worry about grossing him out. Plus it’s nice to be able to discuss it with people who know exactly what it feels like and also how it can have an emotional impact too. Right now it feels never-ending. I’m so exhausted by it! I just want to curl up and die… Maybe that would be an overreaction! I'll just cry instead!