Hi Midwest Girl,
My story sounds very similar to yours.... I had 3 Fissures at my worst point, was hell depressed and just wanted to end it all. I had the Botox last April, I had some improvement, healed 1 Fissure, but the other 2 monsters keep re-tearing. I've just had pressure test and I'm on my second CRS. Don't give up, there will be a solution, one way or another. I'm waiting to see if I can have LIS, if not not sure what the next plan will be. These days I can cope when I'm having good days, but when I'm in re-tear hell, I go into pain and sadness all over again. I've totally overhauled my diet and take Magnesium and Movicol. I get the dread daily, what is my BM going to be like? Am I going to be in pain? I just can't deal with this, hence why I'm pushing the CRS to sort me out! Keep pushing for a solution, you may need LIS, as Botox is a temporary solution, and the Fissures may be too chronic for it to heal, or you may have a high resting pressure which stops healing. Maybe take a list of questions with you, I'm useless when I get in there! I forget everything. Good luck, don't give up, there will be an end to this. Xxxxx