I’ve always believed in the mind/body link in illness and I’ve tried to see things from this perspective whenever I’ve been ill.
When I developed an anal fissure in Nov 2017, all that went out the window. I was in serious Pain and I felt as if I was losing my life. I don’t need to explain that feeling on this forum.
Indeed I did lose my life for the better part of the last 3 months as I went on a rampage to try and heal. I am so grateful to this forum which I read for hours as I tried to find the “One cure” that would finally heal my fissure.
I never wrote on the forum as I felt I had nothing to add, so I just kept reading and soaking up other people’s ideas. I think attempting all the various ways to try and heal this fissure kept me sane during one of the most difficult times I’ve ever experienced.
Finally, I can confidently say that I am healing and the end is in sight. Although I’m sure the myriad of physical remedies etc. all played their part in the process, it wasn’t until I went back to dealing with my mind that I truly started to heal.
And this is why I am finally writing on this forum, because I feel I have something of value to add.
Whether you agree with my belief system around the mind/body connection or not, I will outline my path to healing in the hope it can offer some assistance to others.
After realising that the fissure was not responding to purely physical treatment, I took a step back to assess why I had this fissure in the first place. I believe (most of the time) that illness is like a sign post that shows us when we’re going off track in our lives and it can be a way to assist us getting back on the path we most want to be on.
The starting point for me was to look at where an anal fissure is situated – right at the first (base) chakra. The first chakra deals mainly with issues of safety and security i.e. how we are ‘seated’ in our lives.
I then looked at the areas in my life where I was dealing with issues of safety and security. I identified how these were impacting on my life and I could see the importance of dealing with these. It actually amazed me to see just how big an issue this was for me and then it started to make total sense that I would allow a physical manifestation (illness) within this first chakra zone.
I could then get to work in resolving these feelings. This was the starting point of my healing.
Obviously, these issues will be different for each of us – but the point is to assist the physical healing by clearing out the emotional states that are conducive for keeping the fissure in place.
The interesting part about dealing with the fissure in this way, is that my life is not going back to the way it was, my life has changed in many beautiful ways. I have learnt so much through this process about myself and my life that I can honestly say I’m a much happier person on the other side of this Fissure experience.
Let me get one thing straight – I would never, ever, ever wish to have an experience like this again. The pain, despair etc. etc. is unbearable at times. So I am not in any way saying I’m glad I had the experience. But, having gone through the experience and then forcing myself to look at my life and see what I wanted to change, let me take the most out of this horrible experience and come out on the other side a happier human being.
During the process of dealing with the fissure, I resigned from my job as I could not deal with working through all the pain etc. But now on the other side of it, I realise I want to rather work in this field of healing through the mind/body link. Not only helping people with Fissures, but with any kind of Physical, Emotional or Mental issue that requires healing.
I had thought about pursuing such a path for many years, but going through this experience has lead me to a whole new level of clarity of how I want to work with people.
If you are at all interested in exploring this way of healing further, I would strongly recommend reading up on the chakra system and seeing how illness in the body within the various chakra zones is a reflection of emotional/mental states and gives us clues as to what we need to work on in our lives. This is a good starting point.
The other 'physical' thing I was lead to doing through the process of healing was based on what I read in this paper https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5479997/
I adapted it in a way that made massive improvement and the healing process became quite miraculous for me. This was also part of developing a new level of self-love which I needed as part of the healing process.
It is possible to heal. At many points during the process, I stopped believing this. But now, I can honestly say – It IS possible to heal but the mind needs to heal before the body does.
Jules