...so, another 3 months or so down the line, thought I'd update on my progress (!?) in case its of interest to anyone, or in case anything I write might happen to help someone else suffering from this vile condition.
I've been continuing with the Rectogesic (GTN) after managing to get a second tube from the doctor. Generally my condition has improved over the 6 months, but only up to a point, and its very much a case of 2 steps forward, 1 step back.
I'm not in anything like the pain I was in (in either intensity or duration) at the start, but I'm still a long way off being back to my old self. I still have immense difficulty sitting for any more than an hour at a time, and certain chairs are just an absolute no no! This aspect is probably the worst for me, as it rules me out of a lot of social situations and I now stand all day by my PC while working, which has also brought on pretty bad lower back pain! I can't do any sport/physical activity other than walk the dog (and even then, need to watch steep inclines), and as for relationships/sex - forget it!
So the dilemma I now face, is where do I go from here..?! After 6 months on balance I feel I am getting better, but its painfully slow and my life is nothing like it was prior to the AF. Though I've tried to stay positive, most times I can't help but feel down about what I've become... Yet, on the other hand, if I'm improving, do I just need to stay patient and let time take its effect?
I'm due to see the doctor again next week, when my Recto runs out, and am concerned about the prospect of LIS surgery and the risks of incontinence...Are there other options other than LIS or Botox that might have an effect and help me back to full health (doubt I'll get a 3rd tube of Rectogesic - especially when I tell the Doc I've had a pretty bad spell of Vertigo this last fortnight?)
As you'll probably have gathered I'm not having a good day (after having one of my best days just 2 days ago!) so excuse the moaning rant this post has unwittingly become...To be honest, the mental torture is probably the worst aspect of AF's - its all-consuming...!
Mypoorbutt, in case you happen to read here, I do hope you managed to get your surgery and that you've come out the other side in good health...!? If I don't hear from you i can presume that's the case..!?
BTW, after reading comments on this forum, I'm currently trying coconut oil suppositories, as I believe they have medicinal/healing properties, something which I believe GTN/Recto doesn't possess. Will let you know if I get any joy. Oh and I bought a ring cushion and promptly threw it away after about 5 seconds. Opening the a-hole wide was the last thing my AF needed - so if anyone lijke me is having trouble sitting down and is thinking of one, approach with caution!
Anyway, will keep this thread updated on my progress or otherwise, as it seems like I'm in for the long haul with this little b@***d !
Good luck all!
Mr Fissure