All, what a day. I am exhausted physically and mentally. I haven't cried in pain ever, except maybe when I broke my collar bone when I was 18, but I did today. The pain was unbearable. I thought I had this fissure under control, but you really don't, it's insidious and wont' go down easy. I broke down. I lied on the bathroom floor and cried trying to get my ass to calm down. I was supposed to go to my 2nd day on a part time job, I had to call in, I could hardly talk. My wife had no words. She is so tired of me not being able to do basic things like grocery shopping. I'm healthy otherwise, damn fit. It's been an 8 month roller coaster ride, filled with deceit that I am actually getting better. I'm not. I'll admit it. My name is Richard and I'm a fissure sufferer.
I have looked at studies, watched youtube videos, tried internet solutions, changed my diet, changed by bowel habits... changed my life. But I'm done. I have to have the LIS. I cant' fight this any more. I give up.
Then I cried again when I found this site and read the posts. I've always said that when you think you have it bad, turn around and talk to the person behind you. I cried from knowing I wasn't alone in this agony, others knew my pain. I and cried reading about the pain others.
Thank you all. I needed this.