Hi,
I've only been suffering with this for the last four months but so glad to have found somewhere to talk about it because I really feel on my own! I managed to get my fissure just after I'd been on holiday - I had severe food poisoning and this caused all hell to let loose downstairs and subsequently caused the tearing.
I put up within it for the first 8 weeks after seeing my doctor using topical solutions, over the counter pain killers and basically sitting on my knees at work and on several cushions in the car every day in the attempt to make it stop hurting so much. Eventually I was struggling to sit down so was referred and had botox about 7 weeks ago. It started off ok but has gradually gone back down the same path I was on before with the pain lasting nearly the whole day - it's just not as intense as previously. I've been told I can go back and have another shot if I need to but to be honest I feel like it's just not working. I'm going hell for leather on fibre, water, fruit, veg etc and trying really had not to strain / press too hard with toilet paper but this really isn't going away.
I'm so depressed. All I do is think about it, the pain, worry if it will ever go, and feel like it's all I talk to my boyfriend and parents about. It's making me so sad and I'm just losing all will to keep trying. I don't know how those of you that have had them for years cope!! I just can't but help feel that this is only the beginning and I'm going to have to go through this for years too. I'm terrified of surgery and the pain some have discussed on here. I don't know how to adapt my diet and feel like I'm banging my head against a brick wall.
It's nice (not great obviously!!) to know I'm not on my own, because I feel like no one understands!!