Hello,
My name is Tami, I'm 38 y/o, married and have 4 kids. I've been reading through this site since Monday and am so impressed with the compassion and knowledge you all have for one another. I hope you can help me out.
I hope someone here can help me figure out what is causing my horrific pain so I know how to properly treat it. This past Sunday night on the way to bed I went to the bathroom not feeling anything unusual like being constipated or stomach pain. What ended up was 3 hrs of the worse pain in my life and I've given birth 4 times ( 3 sections, 1 VBAC natural, suffer from horrible migraines and had stage 4 endometriosis and 4 laps to manage that so I know a bit about pain ) and I have never ever felt anything like this. I had been sick for about 3-4 days and hadn't eaten much, therefore hadn't really had any bm's and honestly hadn't thought about it. Having never suferred from constipation and going regularly without the aid of laxatives, I've never really given a whole lot of thought to my bathroom habits, so what happened Sunday, was a total shock to me. I had to manually disimpact myself, which is horrible for anyone, but especially someone who has never been constipated to this extent. As I was in the process of the disimpaction I felt around the outside of my vaginal area and I could actually feel the stool packed inside and I couldn't believe the extent of the constipation. Also, I have never had hemorrhoids in my life, even after 4 kids. But as I was tending to my bathroom problem I could feel what I believe to be a hemorrhoid suddenly there which didn't surprise me after what my bottom just went through and I figured I would be sore the next day, maybe even the next. What I didn't expect was what I've been going through since then, which has been horrid.
I can't have a bm without feeling like liquid lava is pouring right through me. I've screamed, prayed -loudly and while crying - begged and cried while having a bm because the pain is almost more than I can handle. I've read just about everything on the internet about what I have and how to treat it and I've come up with an AF and am leaning towards that heavily because of the descriptions of the burning and severe pain when having a bm. But then I have this hemorrhoid, or what I believe to be a hemmie on the outside of my rectum, well actually it kind of looks like it's snaking out of the top of it. Of course not being in the best position to see it, I asked my husband to take a close up pic of it ( yes gross, but I need to know what it is to treat it effectively ) and it does appear to be a hemie at the top of my rectum. I don't know what is causing me the pain, inside or out. I've read of internal hemies prolapsing out, external hemies, AF, anal skin tags, etc. I'm so confused I don't know what the heck this is and how to treat it. I have bought every Prep-H product, tucks pads, use vaseline between bm -no help-, some cream called balenol, zinc oxide, and I do the sitz baths all the time. Here are my symptoms. Could someone please give me their best guess. I realize you all aren't doctor's but I have no insurance and well, with 4 kids money is tight. I was wondering if maybe the trauma of the constipation and disimpaction that night just caused me to be sore and it will get better except for the hemie thing? Oh, my husband did say that my hemie had gotten smaller since he looked at it Sunday, that's good right? Sorry for all the questions. Please help!!!
Symptoms:
Severe burning with BM
After BM blood is present on TP also with mucus
Pain is always there even after sitz bath
Anus seems very tight when trying for bm[b]