Morning, hi, Danielle here.
Four year sufferer of constant butt-pain, and I'm completely and utterly sick of it.
I've always had bowel problems since I was a really young kid, but this intense horror started during the tail-end of my ninth grade of high school, and so far I've been to four doctors now who've told me that there's absolutely nothing they can do for me, just drink lots of water and deal with it. Which is all well and good as advice, but see, it doesn't exactly help all that much.
No matter how much water I drink, without the help of laxatives, I find it literally impossible to pass a stool. I'm not kidding. And I don't mean that in the "it hurts too much to do it", which is also true, but hey. I mean my bowels SHUT DOWN. I can't do anything unless I induce the BM myself with an enema or a suppository.
I wasn't told anything about a diet that could help me, nothing about medications, nothing about ANYTHING.
I've got blood, and I've got aches and cramps and nausea and oh my god you never ever want to see me on my period, because the pain is always worse then. Water retention or something. It's brought down my marks significantly in school, because I'm up half the nights sick or hurting, or I'm sick and hurting in class, and paying attention just isn't something I can do anymore. Usually the pain is enough to make me throw up, but never enough to actually make me pass out. So that's a plus. Maybe.
And now, because of my lack of education about my medical issue, I've been reduced to completely relying on things like Clearlax/Restoralax on a daily basis. If I don't, I sometimes go two weeks without a BM. And god does that ever make me ridiculously nervous, both how long it takes and the fact that I'm dependent on the laxatives at this point.
It's frustrating, feeling embarrassed like this. I'm desperate, and I'm tired, and I have no idea what the hell I'm doing, and I need help. I'm tired of this, and I want it to go away so I'm not in constant pain anymore kthnx.