i just wanted to see what everyone thought about this....
i just saw my gynecologist for a regular exam today. when i told her about my unsuccessful fissure surgery she didn't seem at all surprised. she told me she has seen many women with fissures who did not heal from surgery. she even speculated that the actual number was closer to 50%, rather than the 95% surgeons tend to tell us. this surprised (and seriously depressed) me, as I am 4 months out from my 1st surgery and now in the process of scheduling a second LIS surgery. she said it is mainly up to your body to contribute to the healing, and that some people's bodies don't respond well in the healing process and they just have to live with the fissure. i am HORRIBLY upset by this and kind of at the end of the line as far as having any hope that this will ever get better.
i've described it before, but i'm not having the same type of spasms that everyone describes, it is just a general pain all the time as well as a raw feeling often, and a sharp pain in my anus upon standing. i can even see the end of the fissure if i examine myself closely. i don't understand how surgery will help my fissure since the spasms aren't even there. plus, how can it EVER heal w/ using the bathroom everyday and irritating the wound.... the whole thing is very confusing (and very painful). you'd think i'd understand after this long, but since i'm not seeing much progress, i don't get it.
i see my surgeon next week again, but i am very hopeless right now as usual....