I wondered if anyone else has had some bruising show up while a fissure was active. It's weird - I just discovered some weird bruises on the top inside part of one thigh, a little nearer to the vagina than the butt actually. I bruise very easily, but nothing else could have caused this (I haven't been riding horses or having sex!). I'm a little freaked out about it. The bruise is about 3x3" and blue and white. I'm not sure how long it has been there - it can be that I just saw it now.
Maybe something inside my butt bled, and the bruise went the way it did because I was sitting? Then again, I've had extremely little bleeding with the AF.

I've never had a bruise there bumbutt, until I had LIS.
Have you been using ice or a heating pad? I had grill marks from the heating pad. I've read of someone almost getting frost bite from ice

I haven't had any bruising there, but I bet it isn't related to the AF--seriously you probably just did something you don't remember! I have bruises show up like that all the time and sometimes I never do remember how I got them.
I'm the queen of overthinking things too--I woke up one morning a month or so ago with this weird sore on my arm. it wasn't there before bed and it drove me crazy! It must have been some kind of bug bite but it's winter and we don't have many/any bugs in the house right now so my thoughts ran the gamut from 'bug bite' to 'fatal skin disease'. I couldn't stop thinking about it until it healed!
Oh, if only we could hit the fast forward button on our lives, get through these appointments, and start having fun again.

i do the same thing Alpine, especially when I had my fissure. It's like my mind was in over drive with worry.
It's kind of crazy, it seems like I'm seeing a pattern on this board with the types of personality's being similar. I wonder if certain people only get fissures??!

Yeah, us 'tightass' types all stick together, right?
I think there's definitely a mental component to it...but seeing blood on the tp doesn't exactly help you get into a Zen state either.

Thanks guys - from one "tight ass" to others!
Who knows what it is... between rectogesic, ibuprofen, sitting on wheat bags, spasms, AF, and other female problems, it could be anything! I should have never looked in the first place!
I will point it out to the crs though, if it's still there.
I'm a bit more calmed down about it now. Of course several other fatal diseases ran through my head. Nothing I can do about it now except to keep my eye on it.

Anxiety is just the worst emotion. I hate it. Maybe we should go to our GP's, explain our troubles and ask for some anti-anxiety meds. I don't think that's an unreasonable request.
I don't think that I have depression...I have moments where I can feel very positive followed by moments of sobbing but that's because of feeling overwhelmed, because I don't want to deal with the invasive exams we have to go through to get this fixed. But at the same time, I'd never cancel my appointment, because it's the only way out of this hell. Hang in there!

Just a quick post to say YEP, bruising here! Black and blue. My CRS said it was from the internal hemorrhoid.
((Singing..."I feel pretteeeee..."))

Thanks Cagirl - another point where we seem to have some things in common. It's a "relief" to hear you were bruised too! I have been dragging myself around the house and have only looked directly at my anus, and I missed seeing the bruising on the inside of my thighs (I see it's actually both sides, just more on one than the other). It's probably a month old, by the looks of it.
Cagirl - when you had LIS, did they also do anything about your internal hemmies?
I was starting to get anxious this afternoon too. So I know what you mean alpine, I don't want to have to go through the prodding, etc - but there's nothing to do about it. I just have to keep telling myself that it is the responsible thing to do to take care of my body. I tell myself that I am lucky I can go to a good doctor. Maybe we should reward ourselves in some way on Feb. 22 after the appointment... What could that be?

I don't know Bumbutt....maybe peace of mind knowing we're about to get this taken care of will be it's own reward?
Then again, I'm still nervous when I read some of the 'bad' experiences where people don't get healed from the surgery.
Some anti-anxiety meds would be a great reward for me right now. That, or some new clothes. I just haven't given a crap about what I'm wearing since the AF has deteriorated. It's hard to pull myself together, I feel so fragile sometimes. AF's aren't great for my self-esteem. I don't feel attractive anymore at all--thankfully my husband doesn't find me any less so.
At least I called my insurance company to make sure the surgeon's in my network, along with his facility...they are, so now that I know I'm not going to get stuck with a $30,000 bill, I can move on to freaking out about something else.
How are your bruises doing?