Bloodybum is right, I reftrained myself from scaring you so far but can;t help it anymore :)
Just kidding.
Joking aside, it takes years to really heal and during this time we must be extremely careful with diet and regular BMs. Only experience helps here so you need to look at the bright side. You will learn when to expect harder BMs and then you will be prepared to assist with softeners, vaseline - whatever works.