by Ever the Optimist » 25 May 2014, 05:26
Thanks Apes! :) I think it's having had to deal with this for so long, you do learn some really important things about your body and your BMs....Just like you, I'm the same! I "go" when it's there and ready, not necessarily when I feel just an "urge" - which can sometimes be an IBS reaction or a hormone surge or even trapped gas. I've really had to learn to distinguish what a proper urge is and one that isn't! I'm convinced prior to my fissure, I spent so many times just sitting on the loo trying to force something out, when I didn't actually need to empty my bowels at all! I've found this quite difficult to deal with but feeling much more confident these days. "Internal screwing" is a good description!! This has really helped me an awful lot in my recovery - Reducing the stress that goes with it all is key for me - if I'm calm, relaxed and focused elsewhere - I don't even think about a BM until I get a proper need to go - This is proven by times I've gone away on holiday etc. and been generally having such a great time and distracted elsewhere, that the whole BM thing becomes relatively minor and I just go when I need to and that's that. Back home, I can become far too focused on the whole routine again and that's not good. My heart goes out to anyone suffering this stuff - it's horrible but hopefully, once people find what works or them in terms of medication and life-style adjustments they are able to make good recoveries and are able to start to put this all behind them.
Chronic Fissure diagnosed December 2011
Healed by Diltiazem around Feb 2013
Anal Fistula followed burst abscess in June 2012
2 internal troublesome piles remain & suspected, but undiagnosed, ongoing Levator Ani type symptoms & flare-ups