things have been manageable and relatively pain-free in the last couple weeks, and i've tried to keep my dose of MOM to 1 tablespoon instead of 2. my BMs are really mushy as i've described before, never formed at all. i don't know if the fissure is healed yet, but i'm not taking any risks of re-tear witha normal poo as long as i'm not having pain now... i'm still super concerned about relying on MOM long-term. i want to try to stop taking it everyday in the next couple months. but, i feel like i'll need some kind of lubrication or something to make a normal poo easier to pass after so long. maybe that will minimize the pain of re-stretching my sphincter around a normal poo.
how many of you use or have ever used artificial lubrication before a BM? i remember reading posts about this, but i'm not sure what kind to use. just regular KY vaginal lube? also, any of you who have used MOM or miralax regularly, how did you manage to wean yourself off it and have normal poos w/o re-tearing? thanks for any advice!!