Heyo!
I had an account on here previously where I posted extensively (Stratocaster). Looks like the account got borked in the move over so starting over again.
I've not posted in a long time as there hasn't really been anything to talk about.
I'll start briefly from the beginning.
I've had issues with blood in my stool as far back as I can remember. I was probably still in my teens. There'd be blood for a couple days and it'd go away within a few and I'd forget about it and not deal with it. Few months later same thing etc.
It all came to a head in 2011. I'd had this cycle of bleeding for a week and good for a few days. Fair amount of 'hot' feeling pain down there. Cutting glass when going to the washroom etc. Sure you all can relate. I went to see my doctor and he told me what a fissure was. Gave me some nitro cream and told me to use lots of Metamucil. Things then got worse. Metamucil would cause me to have really large and hard evacuations that'd really hurt but he told me to use it so perhaps it was my diet. I had a few months of problems on metamucil before I took myself off it. I then started using Beneful (i think is what its called) which is soluble fibre. It helped sorta but just constantly had super loose stool. I might've had a slight allergy or reaction to it as just a little bit would cause something close to the big D.
This was the cycle for about a year. I kept using nitro cream. Things would be good for a few weeks and then blood and back to sq1. My doctor kept saying its nothing serious and a specialist would take a 1+yr long wait so just deal with it. The main issue is I'm gay so it does impact my sex life a lot. There is nothing like feeling inadequate and you can't do anything about it. I'm a problem solver/go getter and I was being told this couldn't really be fixed. Well around mid 2012 I found Miralax thanks to people on here. Taking a dose a day helped a lot and my stools are soft. I can generally eat what I want so I got that part of my life back.
Late 2012 I got aggressive with my doctor saying I need to get this fixed. Give me the damn referral. He found a general surgeon a few towns over that would see me within a few weeks. I went to him and he was a lot more understanding and wanted to help. In 3 weeks I got a botox treatment from him. He said it was as far as he could take it but he'd send me to a CRS if it didn't clear up.
Botox really didn't do anything. I've never had a feeling of spasm unless I JUST went to the washroom and it was super painful. There was a few times in that 6 month window that I bled but it cleared up faster. Mostly just happens if I forget miralax for a day or two or have bizzare eating habits.
So in June 2013 the general surgeon sent a referral off to a local CRS. It's been a totally different experience from the general surgeon. I waited and waited and waited and never heard from the CRS to acknowledge me or anything. I called them and got a REALLLYYYY rude receptionist who said I'm on a list and it takes 6 months. They'll send me a note in the mail to come get checked. December then rolled around. Nothing. Called and left voicemail. Nothing. January February March all came. In March I moved so I called them to say my address has changed. No return call. I called and left another voicemail saying I need someone to call me I've called so many times etc. Oddly enough I had to go to my old apartment to pickup some old mail that came in after I moved. Boink my appointment card was there. April 8th. Alright so finally I can get on with things. THEN the rude receptionist calls me and again is super rude and sarcastic but my appointment is confirmed.
Thus begins the next chapter in this diary. I find out Tuesday WTF is going on and finally get some answers. I believe my main problem is scar tissue. At the 6 oclock position on my sphincter I do have a large bump/thick spot. It's a bit hard and smooth to the touch. It's not a skin tag that needs to be tied off as it's def a part of the muscle right there. Everytime I tear its right there. I think the scar tissue just doesn't stretch so it just happens over and over. I think doctors call them sentinel piles. If he can get rid of that I'm sure I can keep my diet clean and get back to a normal sex life. Only time will tell. I'll update this Tuesday!