Mirilax.
I think if you try it, it may well help things along.
You are not alone in obsessing..... It's perfectly natural to fear the concequences of what goes in one end has to come out the other.. It's a very deep routed fear that's very hard to break. Maybe introduce one of your favourite foods you miss one at a time... Little by little. It may help to make your bms less acidic if they are stinging.... Plus it's so demoralising to have all this pain and no pleasures... And food is one of our comforting pleasures. Maybe just a few squares of chocolate, or scoop of ice cream.... Or handful of chips.... Things like that.
OMB x