by travis1994 » 06 Jan 2012, 01:24
When I was 14 years old, I was hospitalized for a severe fecal impaction that lasted 16 days. (Doc didn't do anything for me until the last minute) anyways..after that was over with, they gave me a ton of tests, and even a colonoscopy. Everything was great until a few days after coming home I noticed I was leaking from my rear end and had some bleeding from there after BM's. I'm 17, going on 18 now and have never gotten any kind of relief from this, until now. I demanded my doc give me a rectal exam, and he did and he said I have a cavity in my anus which looks like a fistula, so I'm going to have an examination under anesthesia to determine where the fistula is and how deep it is and if they can operate on it without doing damage, they will right then and there. I'm scared to death, I've been reading online at the pain people have from the surgery. After that 16 day impaction when I was 14, I have this thing..where I NEED to go to the bathroom at the same time every morning or I start freaking out. Constipation anxiety I guess you could call it. I'm regular, I just hate the thought of it..anyways, I hear from the pain meds you get after surgery it can constipate you so im scared about that..im scared about having the bowel movements after surgery, and im just gosh darn scared in general! I keep thinking to myself, if this is the cause of my leaking issues and this can fix it, I want it..but that doesn't mean I'm going to stop worrying like the dickens about it. This has caused me so much grief and depression the past 4 years of my teenage life and I want it gone now. I just never thought I'd have a surgeon slice me open down there..not in my wildest NIGHTMARES. Why can't I be like the rest of the kids I know and just break my arm playing basketball... I told my parents to be prepared if I have a heart attack on the way over to the hospital tuesday morning :(