I have had a fissure for a while now. I think it started when I had my son in Oct 2008. He was a HUGE baby who caused me a double third degree tear and a cracked tailbone. I had painful bowl movements on and off for a few years. The last 6 months have been hell. I have razor sharp pain with a BM, bloody stools and what I now know are spasms. I was way too embarrassed to go to the doctor. A month or so ago I bit the bullet and went to my family doctor, she did a brief look, externally, and said it's 2 hemorrhoids and a skin tag, no biggy. She gave me hydrocortozone creme (proco-something) and sent me on my way. Well that did not do crap, and I knew I should have pressed her further. Next was a visit to the ER. Humiliating. But the doctor said this is nothing compared to what he's seen! He said it was a "pretty good" fissure. Script for nitro-gel, lidocaine, stool softeners and a referral to a CRS.
I have to be put put of my misery! This SUCKS! My appointment is not until the 30th. I dread having a BM since I will be in the 7th circle of spasm hell for hours. I cannot take an NSAIDs due to a pancreatic problem, so Tylenol is it. I spent 80% of yesterday in the bath , the only thing that made bearable. How the hell do you live with this? I've got 2 kids under 3 and a sit down job!
I know I need to wait to see the doctor, but I wanted to vent a little!

Sara