Hi everyone,
Have resisted posting for weeks in the hope that some miracle will occur and I would be healed, but still ongoing
It's such a comfort to find this site! and reading through others issues and stories makes it all so much more reassuring. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing all. You all help so much.
TBH, I don't quite know where I am at this time with all of this...
My AF started out in December 2011, became increasingly more painful over the weeks, with the sharp glass sensations, which would kick in about half an hour after and last for ages. I have never bled, been tested for everything (negative) and this is the first time ever I have experienced this. I think it was brought on by stress - a pretty quick house move and job change and all the stress that goes with it.
I ended up with an emergency EUA, which confirmed an internal tear and a couple of internal hemmies and then on Dilitazem for about 7 weeks, which REALLY helped with the pain and started to make me feel more normal again.
Then I came off the cream, which wasn't too bad, although I continued to ache and feel this internal pressure that a lot of others have described....Then wham! Anal abscess a week or so later, which popped by itself, but has been checked out by my GP, but I think has led to a further compliction with either a fistula or perinidol cyst or sinus. I have been given conflicting information on this so am not really sure what I have although I have a further follow-up EUA in three weeks, which I hope will confirm it all once and for all.
Thanks to 3 continuous treatments of anti-biotics and terrible diahrroea, I'm sure the fissure is now aggravated and although the pain is not as intense as in those first few weeks, the area is sore, sometimes itchy and sometimes, I get that pressure build up too.
I have been so careful with my diet, aside from the occasional piece of chocolate, which I WILL not give up!!, clean meticulously and drink loads as well taking lactulose etc.
It's just so frustrating!!!! as you all know........
A month ago, I was put on Anti-depressants as this thing was literally just too overwhelming for me to deal with. They have helped a lot in that I have better days now when I can lift myself out of the depression with it all and accept the issue and get on with my daily life. I have taken only a couple of sick days and adopted a lot of coping mechanisms to deal with it all but I just want it to go away so much, as much as everyone else here.....and be NORMAL again!!...
Can anyone please offer some reassurance ?....I have this sinus thing to deal with as well as the fissure, so can't apply anything topically too near that area. Witch hazel and Aloe helps but I don't use it constantly as I prefer to stay "clean" and "dry" down there....
Will the fissure worsen to how it was originally? Or should I start using the Dilatizem again to prevent this? Am I a case long-term for LIS?
I could probably cope better if it was just the one issue! but with this sinus thing too, I just feel someone has cursed me this year, although the docs are saying it's just bad luck.
So sorry to go on.....
Please can someone offer some friendly advice and reassurance that things get better????
Thank you all for reading
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