oh god, I'm feeling this pushing spasm that many people have described in this Forum. The thing is that before I use to have painful spasms now they are a pushing feeling, honestly I don't know which one bothers me more. This is driving me crazy . Either I'm in pain/re-tear or I have the pushing feeling spasm. I want my normal life back
Have any of you had this sequence of spasm, Why Do I have the sensation that I want to push something out?
What could I do to get some relief?

Sounds like what Crackin had. Part of the healing process. Read his story here: http://anal-fissure.org/t6443-fissure-fully-healed-after-8-weeks-on-nitro

Thanks JHH!
At least I have hope then, although I'm not using Nitro, I guess that is another option. I'm so worry, the only thing I hope is not to have any other disease.