by Ever the Optimist » 06 Jun 2013, 12:56
Hi Pain,
I think so many of us have hit your level with a fissure and when you're feeling low, stressed, frustrated and overwhelmed with it all, every single little ache, twinge, pain, annoyance feels 100 times worse than it possibly is. It's the time when you have to try and do whatever you need to do to readjust your focus - OFF your bottom! It's easier said than done I know but distraction works miracles...A change of scenery really helps. So many of us who perhaps go on holiday, get lost in another interest or issue, find that because that focus has been shifted off our bottom and onto something else, we actually feel a lot better! I've read so many times of people who go away and feel they are healed, only to get back to the same environment (and bathroom) and start to become consciously aware again of their issues......I also got so obsessed with my bottom in that when the fissure pain felt better, I'd start focusing on a pile that hadn't bothered me in ages and that began to bother me. When the fissure pain itself reduced, I'd notice perhaps more the pressure pain in my anus that I also experienced at that time & vice versa. It's almost like you're looking and waiting for the next thing to bother you in some perverse way!! We torture ourselves.
This happens under heightened stress levels, so if you can find a distraction, get some more rest, get out in the sun, take up an interest, these things really help. If it gets too much, even seeing your GP for a chat can be really helpful.
I can definitely relate but you do get there in the end :)
Chronic Fissure diagnosed December 2011
Healed by Diltiazem around Feb 2013
Anal Fistula followed burst abscess in June 2012
2 internal troublesome piles remain & suspected, but undiagnosed, ongoing Levator Ani type symptoms & flare-ups