by Ever the Optimist » 11 Jun 2013, 13:57
AFpain,
I too can relate big-time!
Already slightly prone to depression by nature, my fissure pulled me down into a big black hole, from which I could see no way out of. I was sinking big time and my first step was to my GP for a good chat and a good cry. I was also prescribed AD's which have been a life saver for me and although they are not for every one, I needed them to pick me back up and lift my mood and depressed brain cells to a level where I could function & think properly again and then gain my inner strength and determination to get through it all and they helped HUGELY.
I also started to meditate again, practice mindfulness, use positive affirmations every morning I got up, every night I went to bed, everytime I went for a BM. I told myself that it was all a temporary situation, life wouldn't always be like this, trust that my body has all the healing properties it needs to heal itself, I was growing stronger by the day but most importantly that the fissure was healing day by day!........
I threw myself into all sorts of distractions and activities - started new hobbies/ listened to music through headphones (this really helps "block out" negative thoughts as they arise)/ got "lost" in good books, had a lot more "early" nights and just talked about it to anyone who listened and I'm quite sure, bored the pants off a few (!) but it helped me release MY burden and that really helped. I took pleasure in devising fissure-friendly recipes and actually my life changed for the better through my coping mechanisms!
You have to be optimistic and positive to get through the worst and do whatever you need to do to get to that level....All the very best to you and come vent whenever you need to..... :)
Chronic Fissure diagnosed December 2011
Healed by Diltiazem around Feb 2013
Anal Fistula followed burst abscess in June 2012
2 internal troublesome piles remain & suspected, but undiagnosed, ongoing Levator Ani type symptoms & flare-ups