I just got this whole thing 2 month ago. I'm sufeering with total weird new feelings , pressure in the anus/rectum and stuff.
I realize NOW IT HAS HAPPENED, i cannot undo it. I'm damaged. And I still have to keep on living.
I haven't accepted it fully yet so i keep thinking "why me?" and "ohh no.. i'm never gonna be normal".
But at the same time, I guess i have no choice but to accept my new feelings as the new normal.
I have been feeling pains, and pressure and stuff. so i don't feel like my anus/rectum is relaxed like i used to be. But recently it seems like alittle more liveable than in the beginning. If i had to live with how i'm feeling now,,,,, i guess i could. Thats life, right? You just have to adapt and move on. i have some deep pains though so i'm gonna get checked by the doctor next week.
However, if he said that's how you have to live. You have some nerve damage or something and that's how you have to be.
Then, I guess i would have to just get used to it.
PS in my case i don't feel pain with BMs. I just feel deep pain at random times when i'm living my life. But i have rectal presure, pains, and no urge to poo or sometimes light urge that decieves me cause i dont know if i can really do or not. ANd also tenderness in the inside of the anus or rectum. And gas leakage. i may have fecal incontinence too but not really, i haven't felt that much. And when i manage to do Poo, takes concentration to do it, and sometimes i do but not enough or not the same amount i used to do when i was normal
PS i'm male age 30s. I have many other health problems that i have gotten used to and live with them. But it will take some REWIRING of my brain if i have to accept this forever