by ladiluckii » 03 Sep 2013, 15:32
I had my surgery on June 19, 2013. Prior to the surgery I lived with internal, external hems and 2 sentenial Piles. It was so bad that I had to pray that I could go to the restroom everytime I felt the need to go. Finally, I got up the nerve to see the specialist. He told me that my big problem wasn't my hems but it was my fissure that had not healed correctly and had formed a sentenial pile overtop of it. I elected to have the surgery, which really wasn't that bad even though I underwent 7 procedures at one time. I went home and stayed in bed for 5 days. I really only felt pain when I when I had a BM. After my follow up appointment with the doctor, he told me that I was healing fine so I went back to my normal eating habits. I still took the stool softeners but per the doctor, a soft diet wasn't necessary after 4 days. I had a bad BM and tore open my wound after a week of normalcy that I hadn't experienced in years. Now, here I am nearly 3 months later and I feel as though I never had any surgery. I can't make plans, I can't sit or stand for long periods of time, I'm bleeding with every BM and I spend a large part of my day in the bathtub. I use desitin and bag balm every day and even put it on a q-tip and insert it up there. I can feel my sphincter getting tighter again and I think I actually have a tare up higher in my anal cavity. I talked to the nurse today and broke down. I paid $3K out of pocket not to mention what my insurance covered and I'm still in so much pain its horrible. I'm 26 years old and I can't live my life. I haven't been romantic with my husband since before the surgery because I'm scared that it's gonna open up the fissure more and plainly just don't feel sexy anymore. I'm feeling so depressed like there is really no end in sight and I don't know what to do anymore.