I can really relate to what you say and feel Lecia, and I feel so sorry for you.
It is difficult to live with this and at the same time try to live a normal life. It is also hard to be a mum when you're always in pain. Wish I could do something to comfort and support you, but it will only be words...
It is OK to cry because you are sad and in pain, we all do, and maybe it is the one thing that keeps us sane
I think
LECIA (and you should take it as a compliment, as it comes from someone who lives almost on the North Pole...)