To make a very long story short:
1. Noticed one day that I had a bit of bleeding along with pain when going to the bathroom.
2. Diagnosed with a fissure by a regular doctor after an anoscope exam.
3. Prescribed steroid cream and told to use prep h products as well (which I did for awhile).
4. Went to see a general surgeon (colorectal surgeon was booked for months) - he couldn't see the fissure but gaze me diltiazem.
5. Seemed better, almost healed after using the cream for a few months, but had a re-tear (slight bit of bleeding and return of pain) when going to the bathroom one day (I had had no bleeding for at least 1 month, probably longer).
6. Go back in to see surgeon because I had no more diltiazem refills, doctor does another exam and STILL can't see the fissure. He gave me a refill, though. Which is both good and bad, since it costs $30 for a TEENY TINY bottle.
This all took place over the course of 3-4 months.
What in the world is going on? Has anyone had this happen to them? I know SOMETHING is going on, since I have pain (not horrible, though) with a BM as well as anal-muscle spasms. Please note, however, that these spasms are completely painless. I've seen people describe the spasms as painful, but mine is more like a muscle twitch, like the ones you sometimes get in your legs after walking for a long time. There is NO pain involved. I also still sometimes have that pinching sensation. So if there is a fissure, it's not healed, and if there isn't, well... I don't know what to think. The surgeon didn't really say anything much. I wanted to see if anyone had had a similar experience, because I'm just baffled. A little nervous, too, because if it's not a fissure, what is it? :(