How does everybody deal with the frustration when you're trying to heal a fissure and it just doesn't seem to be happening?
Monday was a good day, one BM with very little blood and little itching.
Tuesday started off okay, one morning BM with very little blood and then the itching killed me late afternoon forcing me to scratch and draw blood.
Wednesday was a good day, one BM in the morning not bad on the blood factor at all but then I had to take a BM at night (a rarity) and did so and blood all over the tissue and bowl. Now this morning (Thursday), first BM of the morning and blood in bowl and on tissue again and this was probably the hardest BM I had taken in a week.
Every time I see blood on the tissue (wet wipes of course) or in the bowl I feel defeated, hopeless and like this will never heal. I've had fissures before but I guess they must have been smaller ones because they healed in a couple weeks. This one just won't seem to go away.
How long can it take for a fissure to go away? Am I just being impatient since it has improved slightly from last week to this week? I just don't see how it's going to heal however when I re-tear it practically every time I take a BM (or every other one) but yet I'm supposed to continue to take BMs regularly. Depression is setting in.