I haven't had any more blood on the TP just discomfort after BM, kind of like pre surgery days but not as intense, anyway I'm not prepared to leave it this way and am trying to get a referral to see my CRS, God only knows how long this will take!!
I'm trying not to think the worst but it's hard when things go bad, at nearly 6 months post-op I should be feeling great, instead I can't help feeling that I'm going forward a little then taking a giant leap back, set backs are to be expected I know that but just how many I don't know, it's been a bumpy road that's for sure and right after surgery I knew this would be hard because of the level of pain I was in.
I have prepared myself for what could be a second surgery down there depending on what my CRS says (when I get to see him), I know it will be more pain but I just want that glimpse of hope I had earlier to be a more permanent thing, I need my life back, enough is enough.
Despite things the way they are I'm still gonna fight this thing mentally with positive thoughts, it may of won the battle but I'm gonna win the war!