Hi All,

I hope that to find some more information. I discussed with my PT that self internal massage might be an option for me as this is the way to learn to relax the muscle. She suggested give it a try but go slow.
I will be having an physical appointment in the next two weeks.

This evening I tried to see if I can slowly insert a pinky, just low pressure. My body does not like that and does not allow it, afterwards I got spasms again and being tight.
Has anyone experience the same? Is this normal at the start?

Anus after trauma will not like this and i think will guard even more....anal trauma memory pain lingers for long and many members prefer just stretching and no internal dilation
...look at member Hazey123 posts - she did it for 4 months and nothing really changed...ultimatelly time and deep breathing, meditation and working on your anxiety...i personnaly hate the idea of dilation, especially cause i was brutaly injured during anoscopy from recless proctologist