Well, I bit the bullet and called my surgeon today. I broke out into a sweat when I did. Just a consultation, but I think the first step to my surgery. I have been miserable for way to long. Almost 3 years. I think if this stupid tag didn't develop I would just grin and bear it. I don't know, I keep having the same argument with myself. Have the surgery you will be miserable for a couple of weeks, hell you've been miserable for years so what's a couple of weeks. Then I think well, if it heals and I eat right and take the softner every night, I will be fine......until the next tear. Do I really need to have the tag removed?? I have read some of the not so good outcomes and it scares me to death. So much anxiety, I am tired of thinking and worrying about my ass and pooping. My husband has been a saint and really wants me pain free, but he knows what a baby I am and scared to death at the thought of surgery. I am an OB/Gyn nurse and my own worse patient!!! Crazy huh?!! So many thoughts go through my head about the proceedure, complications, anesthesia, healing time, pain after surgery, what if I get constipated, I don't take any meds except for ibuprofen, I don't like the way pain meds make me feel. Uggg and the list goes on and on. Just really anxious. This forum is awesome and I am so glad I found it, I mean really, who do you tell you have a major pain in the butt to?? My coworkers know but we are a small office 3 others and the Dr. all women so I can share with them. Well, thanks for letting me vent.