Hello everyone.
Well, I'm having my surgery (fissurectomy) done tomorrow the 9th and I am freaking out. I have been nervous all week, but as the hours go by I feel myself almost having a breakdown just with the thoughts. I haven't talked to my wife all week, litterally, I've been feeling angry, and barely acknowledge my kids. I had been diagnosed with depression about 2 years ago and am feeling like I did before, I have not left my bedroom for more than an hour a day. I'm having trouble not going to work, the doctor took me off due to pain, bleeding, surgery, recovery. I keep thinking of the whole recovery process and the intense pain everyone keeps talking about. On Thursday I had my pre-op appointment, I had my blood work done and an EKG done. This thing has given me the hardest time in my life. I pray it goes away and I can be happy and think positively once again. I sound like a child, I know, I just can not control my emotions right now. Any advise would help. I needed to vent a little.