Hello,
I am new to this board, but NOT new to anal fissures unfortunately!!! I have truly read some heart-wrenching posts on here, that I could not identify with more or agree with more quite honestly!!! I am a 28 year old gay male, and I have been suffering with bowel problems all of my adult life. I have also had external anal fissures on and off throughout my adult life, among other various problems as well... I now have an INTERNAL anal fissure (non-painful), but because of this I recently had to have a colonoscopy, THD (transanal hemorrhoidal dearterialization), and an internal lateral sphincterotmy with Botox injected in, done to me actually!! All this was done in one fell swoop, and it has been almost two months (Sept 10, 2012) since the operation it's self actually. The first month was agonizing, but no where even near as bad as my hemorrhoidectomy I had a few years ago, which sent me to the hospital in the ambulance the very next day after having it. Because I had a HUGE bowel movement right the next day after the surgery and I collapsed to the floor and almost passed out because of the pain!!! :-( Anyway.... This time around the healing was going good, until I recently had a sexual encounter that got very aggressive or should I say the guy was VERY aggressive!!! Despite me pushing his hand away repeatedly, and telling him I just had surgery down there... He kept jamming his finger into my anus, trying to finger me basically... And the more I tried to take his hand/finger out of there, the further he would go in... and to make things worse he had long uncut sharp nails as well... So after I finally got him to stop, I ran to the bathroom to see if I was bleeding down there and of course I was!!! Up until this happened, my bleeding was just little specks on the toilet paper after I had a bowel movement. Now because of this terrible encounter I am back almost to square one! I have had 4 bowel movements since then, and each has made me bleed more and more! :-( The question or questions I have is, will I start to heal again?? How long will it take, and when will it ever be possible again for me to have anal sex once more???! I mainly had this surgery so that the bleeding would stop, so that I could have normal bowel movements, and so that I could eventually have sex again! My bowel movements have improved, but are not great either!! If anyone has any answers or intelligent responses to these question, I would REALLY appreciate it!!! I also hope I did not offend anyone with the somewhat sexual nature/content of this post, but I had to be honest in order to ask these questions... ya know?! Well I hope to hear from you guys soon. And thank you once again for *actually* taking the time to read this, it means sooo much to me.. It really does... !