Hello Everyone, This is my story: I got my first fissure while I was in nursing school in 2007. I had very bad constipation from the stress of nursing school and my eating habits. I began to see blood in my stool which caused me to seek medical advice. I went to a general doctor( big mistake) and she made the problem even worse. She did a digital exam to check for hemorrhoids and after the exam she had blood on her glove! The exam was sooooo painful because she had long nails! I didn't notice that before hand. That was very inconsiderate of her and made the fissure worse. After that experience I was too afraid to ever see another MD about the issue. BTW, I didn't have hemorrhoids. Since I was in nursing school, I self diagnosed myself. I would have long periods of a break and the fissure pain would return with a vengeance. I have dealt with this fissure for 6 years but it has been at its worse since March. I have had daily pain since march with maybe a week break in between. My quality of life has drastically decreased and I have even been to the point of thinking not living would be better than living like this. Those thoughts are nothing but the
. I have a lot to live for and that is why I need my life back. I have a beautiful toddler and wonderful husband. There are so many times when I have cried because I feel like I am failing them :( . I have also lost a significant amount of weight because at one point I was even afraid to eat from fear of having a bm. The pain and spasms are at their worse these days. I saw a GI doctor and he prescribed nitro and hydro cream. Neither worked because every morning the fissure would just reinjure with my bm. I couldn't even use the hydro cream because of the swelling. The tube would not insert and I definitely wasn't about to force it
. He also wanted to perform a colonoscopy. Before the colonoscopy I had a week break from the fissure and things were looking up. After the colonoscopy I was back to point A with the pain all over again
My stools are never hard anymore but because the area is so narrow it doesn't matter how hard or soft my stool is. I have been doing sitz baths after each bm and that helps but not nearly as well as it use too. I have been avoiding surgery but I am actually looking forward to it now. I think it is worth a try. I want to be me again. I want to be able to be the wife and mother that I know I can be. I found a CRS about an hour away from home and he has good reviews. I actually have my appointment tomorrow and I hope it goes well. I have read the success stories from the LIS and that is why I am leaning more towards surgery. I want to try something that has a high success rate. I have a sense of peace about getting the surgery now which is not at all normal for me. I just hope I will be posting a success story soon.