What does it mean when you've had a fissure for awhile, in the lateral position, and endured rather intense pain, but then the pain subsides quite a bit, but there is more blood spotting? Is that a sign it's healing maybe? I don't know where to turn anymore. I have had this fissure since October & I am sick of it. This is no way to live. I can't take much more. It's ruining my life. I already have anxiety & bipolar disorder, plus HIV, but this takes the cake. I spent a month trying to heal without meds, then I tried Nifedipine/Lidocaine cream for 4 weeks. Didn't seem to help much. I had quite a bit of pain, with little spotting. Now, in the last few days, the pain is much less intense, hardly noticeable at all, so maybe that's a good sign? But with almost every bowel movement the last couple days I have spotting of blood which scares the hell out of me.
I saw my CRS the other day, he scoped me. He said I have a lateral fissure at 3oclock. He said since my numbers are good & labs are good, it's probably due to HIV since it's in an atypical position. He said surgery would be more trouble potentially than leaving it alone, that it could recur if he excised it. He said I do NOT have cancer, which is a relief, but I am sick of sitting around scared to death to have a bowel movement for fear of seeing blood on tissue.
I can only see the one CRS for now because I barely have insurance as it is, and I can't afford to see another one unless the clinic where I go would pay for it. I think my CRS is a good guy and competent, but I'd like another opinion.
After my appointment the other day he told me to stop the Nifed/Lidocaine cream, and gave me some Lidocaine ointment USP 5% with peppermint oil. He just said basically I have to wait it out, & keep eating fiber, etc. But how much longer will this take to heal?
It's so damn embarrassing so I can't exactly tell many people about it, I am ashamed to even go to the ER, and I'm not sure they'd do much anyways. Maybe I could go to the ER and ask them to operate on me and remove the fissure, but they probably wouldn't unless they thought it was bad enough?
I called my primary doctor's office today to ask for a different type of ointment to try like Nitro, but they didn't get back to me. I've called so much lately due to this problem that I'm embarrassed to bother them anymore. So I guess all I can do is just go to the ER and tell them this is about to send me into a mental breakdown. Maybe then someone will help me. I'd just like to take my chances & have this removed if it's not going to heal itself. Like I said, the last few days, the pain is much less intense, so maybe that means it's healing, but I am having bright red blood spotting about every bowel movement. Probably will go to the ER in a day or two and demand action if this doesn't stop soon. Maybe they'd listen to me.
This is ruining my life, I am hoping to go back to school soon to further my education but now I'm so mentally drained that I feel like I am about to have a total breakdown.