Hi all,
I'm really struggling at the moment and I'm not sure what to do. I got my last fissure in 97 and just developed a new one a couple of weeks ago. I also suffer from IBS.
Anyhow, I changed my already very bland diet immediately and upped the wretched Movicol and have ever since been on a largely white fish, jacket potato and broccoli/peas diet. I do have a fish finger sandwhich for lunch with a whole avocado. The problem is this has now exacerbated my bowel urges and I find I'm producing stringy too soft motions and my bowel only feels empty for a short period - then I get urges again. I find I'm going to the loo about 4 times a day, which although not completely unknown for me, it's accompanied by the frequent urges.
I'm not exactly spasming like a typical fissure, but this pressure is driving me insane and my anxiety levels are sky high. I can't think of anything else and only really get any respite during the evenings when things seem to calm down a bit, urge-wise.
It's even worse seeing all the busy people enjoying themselves for Christmas and feeling like I just want to hide away, even from my wife and 6-year-old daughter - it's breaking my heart.
I've been chatting recently with one of the lovely members on here (mypoorbutt) and she's been really great and very encouraging. I'm just in this dark place at the moment and I'm struggling to see a future.
Anybody got any ideas regarding my mental and physical state - I'm feeling like a helpless wimp at the moment and can't wait for Christmas to be over, if I'm honest.
Also any ideas about diet to help put some weight on. I'm eating avocados for the calories, but I'm not sure they fully agree with me. I'm even wondering if having such a limited low-cal diet is not giving the Movicol enough substance to cling onto to to make better formed stools. I'm having about 80ml of Movicol morning and night.
I hope to see my old CRS in the New Year, but have to get through Christmas first. Incidentally, I've suffered with this for nearly 20 years in one form or another (fissures, hems, IBS etc.). As I discussed with MPB, I'm very tempted to try and get an LIS in 2017 if I can, but I'm worried my IBS will really hinder the recovery.