Darn it. I just hate this anxiety. On top of the AF discomfort, my anxiety rides me hard.
I had a (clear and routine) colonoscopy three years ago -- and since my AF recurrence, I've seen two, different crs. One crs said my AF was fine - but the other crs (who performed my colonoscopy) said I had an AF. He is the one I'll see this Thursday.
I'm going back to him, because I'm not much better after 3 months' time. --- It's extremely anxiety producing for me to go to the doctor, especially for something like this. Of course, I hope he doesn't want to run tests (thinking there's something else in there) - and I hope that he says my AF can be dealt with successfully (however that needs to happen).
So, for the next two days - and possibly beyond - I'll be fighting my nerves. I just wanted to vent about that. I know that no one can face the doctor for me - but I sure wish this stupid AF had gone away (and I also hope that's all it is that's bothering me!), and I wish I didn't have to go through any of this.
The clock is ticking, time is going by, and my life is on hold! - and I don't know how/if I'm going to get it back. --- I had to vent. Sorry. I'm just so disgusted, nervous, and upset by all of this.