by rasmith3530 » 13 Feb 2012, 00:49
Hey Tanya, thanks for the advice regarding the Klonopin. I've had to wean off stuff before, but I'll be working with the docs on that when the time comes, which I hope to be soon, as I've seen no positive change to my symptoms. I'm OK with taking meds if I need them, but right now, it's like they're poking around my mind with flashlights and throwing meds at me to try and resolve a disorder that they're clueless about. Before the anti-depressant/anti-anxiety cocktail, they had me on a round of anti-seizure meds. Those were a trip. At one point, I felt like I was back in the 1960s on LSD. We ended that experiment pretty quickly!
It's funny. After some months trying to get my A1C numbers down and my HCLs to look closer to normal, we've got something that's working. I do think I'm on the right track with my fissure as well, and tomorrow, as I begin physical therapy, we'll get to see if my back is heading in the right direction. Sadly, I don't believe that they are having any success with my mind. On that score, I do believe that the problem is organic in some way and they either don't have the knowledge or equipment to find a cause and cure.
Years ago, as a love child of the 1960s, I did a lot of my own experimentation with various psychotropic chemicals. I was a steady user of LSD and other hallucinagenic drugs for over five years. At one point, I took acid daily for one month, and due to building a tolerance, at the end, I was needing to take eight, ten or more hits of LSD to get off. As I got sober, I asked a psychiatrist what would be the long term effects, especially as I got older. He replied to me that he had no idea, that the field had no studies on long term use of these substances. He also said that for every thing modern psychiatry knew about the mind at the time (1983), there was ninety percent more they didn't know. While I was working with the second neurologist consult several months ago (almost thirty years later), I received a nearly identical answer. Both doctors, one a psychiatrist and the other a neurologist were clear to point out that modern medicine is as much an art as a science.
Of course this is why I believe we see so much variance with possible causes and solutions with our anal fissures. Something works for one person but not another. They need a different course. And then there are those poor souls who've suffered on and off for a decade or more. As much as they know, their are missing pieces to the puzzle, just like with what's going on with my head.
Anemone, I wish you much luck on the path you're taking to resolution. I hope you suffer little and heal quickly.