Hello,
So it's been about 7 months since my last post.
run-down of what happened in April/May 2012:
- large bowel movement caused minor anal fissure (at least I think so); small amount of blood on tissue 3 times, then anal discomfort persisted.
- tried so many things to heal this, but my doctor and I came to the conclusion that my anal fissure actually healed, and the pain I was experiencing was just "after effects". he gave me voltaren (for muscular hip and buttock pain that he and I have come to believe is unrelated to this) and sent me on my way. This explanation didn't add up to me, and with a little online researching discovered I had developed periformis syndrome. Now, I have no idea if anal fissures are related to this condition, it doesn't seem to be -- but I think the fissure I had was the catalyst for this syndrome to start causing pain (general muscular gluteal pain that goes into lower back, legs, and feet). I know it's wrong to self diagnose, but I get anxiety about going to the doctors, and he never seems to actually help me (honest to god). The stretches I've been doing for PS have been helping a lot, and isn't what I'm here for.
- So my anal fissure was gone, looking back now, from two weeks to a month. The pain I was experiencing was not inside the anus (sorry for TMI) but in the general region of your butt. I don't think that's characteristic for anal fissures (it was that way, but only for the first few days I experienced blood on the toilet tissue).
- Been working to heal my periformis syndrome (which I still believed to be an anal fisure) since May. Did not find information on the condition until August 2012, so from April - August I was pretty much in agony all day, constantly with a heat bag/hot water bottle on me. Literally. Constantly. I didn't know what I had and sitz baths do nothing to help periformis syndrome. Thank god I found out about periformis syndrome -- doing stretches to target the inflamed muscle, I have seen pain greatly reduced in the 5 months I've been doing the stretches (though it is still definitely there).
- Now to the point of all of this. With the holidays wrapping up, my diet took a turn for the worse. I have been diligently taking magnesium supplements since May 1st 2012 (to avoid hard stools) but downgraded to a Calcium/Magnesium supplement in September (I didn't think I needed the hardcore stuff anymore, but I guess I was wrong). Less magnesium and more salty/sweet/fatty foods in the last two weeks have led toooo... a new anal fissure! yay. (heavy, heavy sarcasm)
- It's different this time. Had a small amount of blood on the toilet paper 2 days ago. The discomfort and pain I felt afterwards pretty much confirmed in my mind that I had an anal fissure again.
- I read on here that gas can make the pain worse? Because I have been relatively pain-free (though discomfort for sure) since I had my last bm (4 hours afterward I was fine). But I guess I've been gassy today and now, trying to sleep -- it hurts! I'm so scared to go to the bathroom tomorrow. I upped my magnesium and tried to eat more fibre, but other than that I haven't really been doing anything different.
- Any quick fixes here? I really, really don't want this to get worse. I'd like it to heal like it seemed to in May (though caused a whole different issue which made me think I had a chronic anal fissure that went on for months, until I learned about periformis syndrome). This is not periformis syndrome I'm sure of it. The pain is right in the exact location where you'd expect it to be...
- Basically just back here for some support. My family got so tired of dealing with my pain problem this summer and I try so hard not to complain about my butt/legs/hips bothering me (which is most of the time) but this pain is hard to ignore. It's so frustrating that it's just a cut, which would heal in no time if it were anywhere else. Sigh. I'm driving 4+ hours tomorrow and then walking around for the rest of the day so I really hope that goes well. Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and be totally cured! I'm just really scared. Already a hypochondriac and the idea that my fissure has been in hibernation for the past 7 months only to come back worse scares me. Last May I was pretty much resolved that I would need LIS -- how little do I know, right -- my anal fissure was already gone by then! But it's just how I am, I'm always presuming the worst! I'm going to be buying the normal magnesium pills tomorrow so hopefully that helps. I don't have any creams or anything (other than preparation H -- yes, I used that in April when I had no idea what the heck was going on).
- This may be TMI, but looking back, I'm wondering if my use of toilet paper might have caused this a bit. I have a problem with recurring UTI's, so making sure everything is clean 'down there' is super important. I may have been rubbing too hard after BMs? I know everyone here recommends baby wipes, but do they really help? Worth buying?
- My bms were actually toothpaste consistency in the summer before I went on the Cal/Magnesium combination. If I can get them back to that point, hopefully, hopefully I'll get better.
Thank you so much if you got to the end of this! It's 4am here so I'm probably not as coherent and concise as I'd want to be. And my sincerest sympathies to anyone reading this whose ever had an AF. seriously. support to you from me.
Any advice you may have about healing a new anal fissure (what to do, what not to do) would be HUGELY appreciated.