Hi everyone
I've been suffering with an anal fissure for over two years. Two years ago, I went to see a doctor and he told me I had hemorrhoids. I went on with it, dealing with the pain for another year and a half until January 2013, when the pain got suddenly unbearable.
I went to see a different doctor, who has been great. It turns out that I didn't have hemorrhoids, I actually had a chronic anal fissure. This new doctor treated me with Nifedipine, fiber, and laxatives. I was better with in a week. I had never felt so good, and my fissure was gone.
That is, until early April, when it came back.
I tried treating myself with all of the same tactics taken in January, but the results were very neither here nor there. I suffered for another few months, thinking there was nothing I could do besides just continuing to try what worked back in January. I did not want the surgery. But in late June, like in January, the pain got unbearable. I couldn't walk. I couldn't sit. Lying down hurt. Everything was horrible.
So in early July, I scheduled an LIS and fissurectomy with my doctor. I had the procedure on July 18th, 2013.
I felt immediate relief after the surgery. I was astounded and so happy. I was just a little sore, and the bleeding during bowel movements stopped just two days after surgery! I stayed in bed for several days, and within five days after the surgery, I was up and about. I went to work, I had barely any pain, just some soreness here and there.
But a week after the surgery, suddenly, after every bowel movement I was in excruciating pain. It was a similar feeling as before the surgery. But no blood. I was stuck in bed from last Thursday to Monday.
I made an appointment to see my doctor, and saw him on Monday, which is the day that I started to feel much better (no pain after BM). He told me that everything was healing up excellently and that I shouldn't worry.
So this week has been great. Barely any pain. I've been taking it easy, no exercise or anything serious. Slow walking. No bleeding in two weeks.
Until this morning. I just had a bowel movement, and it was a little harder than usual. There was blood.
I'm currently breaking down because, after two years, I have nothing left in me to go through this anymore. I don't understand why I'm having blood, for the first time in over two weeks after the operation. Is my fissure coming back? Did I screw something up? Is this normal?
I'm so scared. I don't want to be in pain anymore and I want to have my life back.