Hi, my name is Suzanne and all my life, I have hated and felt embarrassed with any subject on ablutions, so it was a complete horror story, that after having my colon checked, I discovered a couple of month's later, excruciating pain on visiting the toilet and then, on doing some internet research, I see that I have a fissure.
Oh and I live in France. Even on the medical notes, it said that the preparation was mediocre but of course, they refused to take responsibility.
I had no choice in the end to go to a dr and at least, he treated me with dignity, but it was just AWFUL. He then confirmed that I have a small fissure and gave me creams and other bits. Nothing worked. Oh for a time, the pain eased up, but always came back.
I ended up being seen in hospital, where they did not care about giving the patient dignity. I had to lie as though I was doing a sexual act and the man put his finger in me and honestly, if it were not for my husband, holding my hand, I am sure I would have attacked the pig! Yes, I was in tears of mortification and especially when he said: oh it is only a small fissure and that I was to start the medication, as though I had not!!!!!!
Well, we have moved out of the area and because of this, I feel less bitter. But every day, there is pain.
I have changed my diet and things are better, but the after effects are bad.
There is no point me going to the dr, because here in France, they do not care about the patient and I cannot go through the sheer indignity of it all, which is why, the title of my post.
I am regular, which honestly, I go into surreal mode, as I go to the toilet. Sometimes I cry with sheer relief that it is not painful and other times, I am crying with sheer agony!
I do not wish this on anyone!
So I joined in the hope that I can feel some support.