Saw a person on here had a fissure for 8.5 years. i feel a little better nw. thank u stranger

ive had mine or 5 years. healed it and ripped anew many times now.

developped anal spasm and some dysfunctions. cant shit it all out some shit remains and causes throbbing pain and tension. excruciating and feels like life force fading until i shit it out using a rectal syringe.

who to blame? mostly local health care practitioners. i mean i hate myself mostly for this. but they are local GPs are assholes.

2017 used laxatives. almost made it to Uranus riding a toilet non stop. blood. daily pain and tension left shoulder and into the right foot. hard to focus on stuff. i still can perform work and put a fake smile and enthusiasm on. doable. hard to finish business in the bathroom but doable. no drama. didnt even know i had a fissure. kinda forgot all bout it.

2018. moved uphill. a lot of furniture moving. 30min half up hill walk on the way home from work. work is sitting on my ass in da office whole day working on a pc. back home more sitting on my ass. working or gaming. have to take second trip to bathroom cuz not everything came out and it felt. one day - drips of blood. stinging burning pain. made shoulders tense. went to see a GP. she went put a finger right up my alley. agony. it might be a fissure she said, try this ointment, off u go. 70 dollars to get violated and get no advice whats so ever. i had no idea what im dealing with as of yet. stuff didnt do much. works streesfull as hell billion dollar offshore project nw dis bs. i come home from work and cry. smoke ocassional joint when bout to quit life. downward spiral begins..
saw other GPs. i think i tried rectogesic which cost me 70 bucks and after one time the migraine it gave me made me change my mind bout. one GP gave me pregabalin lol. after a week i quit it. i cant recall any GP giving an actual advice nor strategy nor warning dis sht is debilitating be careful, yano. ive seem dozens of them. recall doing my own research. changing diets and all. going clean off the weed. coffee.

2019 had to move out. had only 2 weeks to find place. and what do u know. got a place. cool. neighbors love meth and drinking. hell ye. "my type a crowd". so at work i get hammered by asshole bosses and home i get hammered by my heigbors. sik life style. weed every day after work. cocaine at work. no fcks given right. im super star. fissue reminds of itself every time i need to sht. agony for bout an hour. i think stopping coffee and going swimming lanes helped. also taking magnesium b6. i stopped having leg cramps. but i was generally cranky and tense. all i remember every morning it was a cnt. i had to work so cudnt get high before taking morning dump, so it hurt for 1 or 2. most of the time.

2020. i did well on first project but second project i ws a fkn mess. i ws generally fed up with everything in my life. everything suffered. like my music hobbies. gaming. sports. friendships. mental health. physical health. i became an addict. got addicted to pregabalin too. developped dis issue when i never shat the last little bit out. tht bit wud cause an agony until its out so i had to gross stuff. scoop it out manually. thts when my self esteem went downhill at exponential rate. used virgin coconut oil for butt diving in case u wanna try. great fun.
oh ye 2020 i discovered chamomile sitz bath

cant remember all the details cuz of what happened 2022 but they there in my daily journal. what if, someone actually read dis sht and want to know more..what if..

i had to wait for community hospital surgeon which wud take years . and it did. cuz i didnt have insurance and didnt have spare 5k for a surgery.

came covid. all my work for the year was canceled. lockdown. i got stuck with nothing but me tonnes of weed, alcohol and my lovely neighbors. oh yes and my beloved anal fissure. funny enough they had enough of weed meth and alcohol so they were happy didnt upset me much. my sister i never had a fight with in my life, cuts me out of her life for good. gg. mst ppl abandoned me and cut me out. but my loyal anal fissure friend always remained at my side. best friends forever and ever. i hang out with ppl who abuse substance. acid. mdma. dmt. weed.

i think end of 2020-2021, i stopped everything. running. training 6 days a week. doing mma. and styding information technology. somehow i sorted everthing out. than hah... i was wrestling this huge fat cnt, and surprise. my best fissure returned. im bac on weed full time. but still training heaps. 50 bag a day. and boxing and rigby and running. somehow dis worked. if i was high i didnt have ibs. not a worry in my life. and cud relax and shit well.

2021-2022 snorting ritalin, pregabalin followed with the weed. ofc. it was up and down. one good day followed by sht day. i got kicked out places. sarted drinking a bottle of jack and box of beers a night. along with snorting ritalin and smoking a tonne of weed. i was at uni at the time. studying IT...doctor there introduced me to xylocaine. oh boi tht stuff was gooooood.

i got drug endused schizophrenia. started hearing voices and hearing imaginary stuff seeing stuff too. tried to kill myself ambulance took me to mental hospital. i was put onto intra mascular anti psychotics injections and also bottles of lactulose for my fissure. i saw clearly what drugs and alcohol are and lost all interest in them. ive met Elon mask and son of donald trump there...

hell begins. nw i cant do anything nor shit. antiphychotics made me a vegetable. i was too tired to get up. lactulose destroyed my gut and i cudnt shit properly since that day. it was poisoning me and i was feeling terror and wanting to die. but i thought it was antipsychotics doing that. i had hot liquid diarhhea stuck in my ass causing me agony cuz of lactulose. so there i was. laying breathing and trying to shit were my main occupations for couple of years. fissure was healing and tearing. i mean ot healed before lactulose destroyed my gut. i discovered a rectal syringe. morning flush with warm chamomile. sits bath and mainly laying in bed. fissure healed in 2 weeks. in addition i got botoxed. but being a vege with no brain power. alone in different city in motel full of gang members and druggies, anyway .. i tornd it again. some of my days were especially fun, killer migraine for 2 days in a row and burning throbbing ass pain. together.

present. end of 2024. my gut still doesnt function properly. since lactulose. antidepressants and antipsychotics destroyed it. i sht yellow pungent sht no matter what diets i tried. salatas. pumpkin pures. meat diet. tried psyllium husk, made me shit 4-5 times a day re opening fissure. i tried every laxatives tht had volatile effect on me. sprayed burning shit 5-6 times re opened fissure. lactulose in the end made me shit some mucuosy red yellowish chunks. like i had gastro entiritis. tried green ointment tht aparentely better than rectogesic. i tried everything. even starving and just watter for few days a several times. problem is. its not gonna heal if i have to use rectal syringe 4-5 times a day tryin to get bits of shit out.

a surgeon recently pumped with bottox. and i was on muscle relaxants and celocoxib for inflammation. it healed...until i forgot bout it and me moved some heavy furniture. so stupid. how easy we forget. i felt it the next day...

local gps and community hospital never listen to what im saying. i said many times laxatives and stool softeners are no good. its constipation aparentely. right. none of them even took a sht sample.

most effective were chamomile rectal syringe. sits bath with chamomile. diet like pure soups or pure meat diet. apples carrots and spinach i cudnt digest. magnesium cause burning diarhhea but it all came out though. i also use this mineral disk tht removes inflammation. there was some stretches i did for pelvic floor. yoga is no good. energy drink like V seed to make me go sht. so kinda helps ig. smoked fish and potato mash are good. antidepressants and anti biotics > insta death. beetroot doesnt digest. so basically vege wit skins > avoid. rice avoid. im surprised many articles on ineternet give u da same bs , but they never dealed wit fissure in their life, ye rice, beans (fkn geniuses, beans produce gas, so much fun to rip farts all night with an open fissure o fkn joy), tht and that. go kys assholes. only meat diet legit. lamb, beef and pork, shit once in 2-3 dats a little bit. u get 1-2 days a fissure can heal and NO GAS like from beans and cabbage and other crap they tryina get u to eat. dont risk wit food supplements either. omega 3 seems to work good. stopping coffee helps.

im having bottox soon and sigmoidscopy to check inside gut. and going with meat / pumpkin pure diet / sits bath. imma nail dis son of btch dis time. also tattoo leters on my fingers, a-n-a-l (right hand) p-a-i-n (left obv) so i dont forget. olive oil is very good. proctosedyl ye na can make u go insane in the membrane and cause infernal burning. virgin coconut oil is okey. but its all evil when sht still there its just pure hell humping and throbbing.

i think i tried everything out there. i havent mentione every single thing it tried. if u think i havent tried something mention it pls. atm its throbbing every time i go or even sit down.

5 last years were pure agony. i wanna kill myself. the end.

thanks for reading i guess. if there was such person who actually read dis.

update. my surgeon (God bless her) suggested I've been having a gastro entiritis or gastro intestinal virus. and..it all made sense. idiot GPs focusing only on anal fissure and conctipation symptom. ignoring all other symptoms I've been reporting. anti depressants and antipsychotics destroyed my immune system. lactulose killed off all the good bacteria in my gut. i had open fissure. went to public sauna to treat it (very stupid of me). sit in hot pool etc. gastro entestinal bug lives in water survives chlorine. so for some time its been destroying me, I had acid yellow diarrhea all da time, smells like a corpse, with mucus, inflammation in my gut, skin problems, get fevers and flu like symptoms. throbbing pains especially radiating from fissure (throbbing shaking whole body type throbbing, clearly infection) and u know all of these cunts listened to me talk bout it and kept prescribing stool softeners and laxatives. and oh boi gastro entiritis doesn't like them one bit, every time I thought I was gonna die. same with sugar drinks. as if anal fissure not enough I added gastro intestinal bug..

i hope this post will save a life. and my suffering wasnt for nothing.