I wanted to write this post because Im anxious and also excited. I have been lingering around this forum for about 3-4 months now. My fissure started about 5 months ago. I actually didnt know what it was for a couple weeks. Thought it was some irritation or maybe a hemy. The first gastro I went to prescribed me hydrocortisone suppositories which were a total waste of time. He actually didnt diagnose my fissure, he thought maybe just some slight irritation from something I ate. The pain would come and go and for the most part was bearable. As time went on so did the increase in burning, throbbing, and struggle to have my quality of life back. I became more disciplined with my diet and treating it but seemed to be getting worst. I think there is a breaking point for most of us. I tend to be very patient in most situations but IM DONE.
IM NOW POSITIVE THAT SOME OF US HAVE A SPHINCTER "RESTING PRESSURE" THAT IS HIGHER THEN THE NORM. THIS DEFINITELY IMPEDES OUR PROGRESS. THATS WHY WHEN WE FIRST GET IT WE HAVE TO DIAGNOSE IT QUICKLY BECAUSE TIME IS OUR ENEMY. A LITTLE CUT INTO THE MUSCLE WILL DECREASE THAT RESTING PRESSURE AND FINALLY ALLOW THE FISSURE TO HEAL. THATS WHERE IM AT........
A list of what I dealt with the past couple months:
-Applying all sorts of stuff up there like Nitro, Nifedipine, Coconut oil, petroleum jelly, hydrocortisone.
-Watching my diet like a total lunatic. Observing my bowel consistency daily and becoming obsessive compulsive of the fear that my stool could be a little harder then usual.
-Not enjoying most of my summer because of the constant ache, burning, stabbing feeling I would get.
-Ruined my 4th of July, Labor Day, and many weekends playing golf.
-Couldnt enjoy rides on my motorcycle because of how uncomfortable it could be.
-To many times I would lash out at my wife because of the annoying pain and exhaustion of the nonstop treatment. It made be bitter most days.
- And the icing on the cake would be the point when you think your almost completely healed. I would be so excited that I actually beat this little bastard and suddenly it reminds me I cant. I tried everything and decided it is my turn to go the surgery route.
Im one that truly believes our bodies are capable of incredible things. Ive always been a fast healer and can tolerate pain. This forum has been so crucial in my slow and steady absorption of knowledge. I meant with a specialist from Princeton, NJ and surgery is scheduled for next Tuesday, October 4th. I would definitely appreciate some positive thoughts. Im not afraid of surgery but I hate the "waiting" period. This waiting period is what makes me super anxious. If it was up to me I would have it done as I write this post so I can get a head-start on the healing.
"F" this fissure. I will keep everyone up to date on my progress because I owe this forum that much. I cant believe someone will be cutting into my anus in 6 days..........yikes.