
My doctor gave me a refill of my diltiazem cream but other than that, he's kind of blowing me off because he can't see the fissure. He said if I really wanted to he could give me anesthesia and take a closer look, and he mentioned they could try a procedure where they stretch that area. I was under the impression that few doctors did that anymore, though - isn't that the treatment that has greater chances for permanent incontinence? He's made it clear he just doesn't want to do the LIS because he can't see the fissure.
This guy is actually a general surgeon at a surgical office. I originally wanted to see the colorectal surgeon when I first started going to this office a few months ago, but she didn't have any appointments available for months, so I opted to see this guy. And now they want me to continue seeing him, and won't let me see the colorectal surgeon. So the only doctor who has been able to see my fissure was a regular one at my local clinic, and that was way back in May or April, I believe. I can't even remember!!!
The doctor kept telling me that if I really had a fissure it would be impossible to do the internal exam, but (A) I know that's not true because I had the internal exam done when I had a VISIBLE fissure way back when, and (B) the exams are still quite uncomfortable, and todays was pretty painful, but I just dealt with it. Not much choice, y'know? Most doctors I've had don't want to stop an exam even if it DOES hurt (because they're jerks who don't give a crap, quite frankly), so I've learned to keep my mouth shut unless I truly can't bear it. But even then I've had doctors refuse to stop. Gotta love 'em.
What in the world should I do? Should I try to find a colorectal surgeon at another facility? Do I need to be seriously worried that this is something more sinister than a fissure? Like I said before, my bowel movements yesterday and today were the worst ones yet. I was saying "ouch" out loud even when I was trying not to. It's like passing shards of glass. I'm starting to agree with women who compare having fissures to giving childbirth! So I don't understand how my fissure can't be visible. I KNOW that whatever problem I'm having, it's not healed.
PS: I should note that my muscle spasms are painless, unlike the spasms many other people here describe.