Hi Everyone,
My fissure appeared about 11 months ago after giving birth to my daughter. I strained and have regretted it ever since. I literally cry thinking about it. All the pain and time it has taken from me. Once prescribed, Diltiazem worked wonders right away. (Was on it for 3 weeks as ordered, but I now realize from reading posts that maybe that was not long enough) I pumped and dumped the whole time which was emotionally hard because I really wanted to provide my daughter with breastmilk. Once I started the cream, spasms were gone and no pain while going within a few days. I have not had a spasm since (over 9 months now) and have not had sharp pain when going like I initially did. Initially, I would have glass ripping pain and spasms for hours and hours - so bad I had trouble sitting and feeding my daughter. It was truly terrible and torturous. I really would rather give birth again.
Since then, once in a while when I pull back on routine of Miralax, Sitz bath, using Unpetroleum jelly before going, etc. I'll get some slight pain or burning but no spasms or blood. It goes away within a few days. Does this happen in the healing process? I'm assuming I'm not totally back at square one because I don't have spasms or blood, but I don't know if this is just wishful thinking. This is a terrible condition as you all know and really has taken a toll on my mental health and ability to be 100% for my one year old daughter which is what kills me the most.
My question is has anyone found a natural alternative for Miralax? Does Benefiber have similar results? I need something that will keep stool soft but not bigger! I'm petrified to stop but I'm hoping one day I can. I am taking half a dose each night and will hopefully continue dropping as time goes on.
Also, anyone get fully healed with Manuka honey? I have started applying it hoping it may keep that area healthy and healing.
I just pray one day this is a bad memory. It's so traumatizing that I can't even imagine getting pregnant again and pushing a baby out - which makes me sad and angry that something can have that control over my life.
Praying for healing for all and better days.