I’ve had 12 days without any bleeding, managing soft stools solely through diet (stool softeners and osmotics in small doses give me diarrhea), and then yesterday, eating slightly more of a certain food, but drinking more water to compensate , this morning I had a BM that was slightly too large and stretched my fissure. I saw some pink on a stool and a little in my wipe. And then when I went one more time, the stinging and soreness during and after (despite the stool being a bit loose and easy to come out) told me I must have aggravated or reopened my fissure.
I need someone to tell me that it’s possible to come back from this and I didn’t set my healing back totally. The soreness and stinging faded after 10-15 min and it was not at ALL like the pain I used to encounter. I’ve been using GTN ointment for ~two weeks and do feel like I’ve been healing. I just feel so bereft that I could end up - bc of one slightly off day where I didn’t even strain - back to square one or further injuring myself.
Any words of encouragement?