Hi dear ass fellows,
I am not going to get in to details about how it happened and how painful it was unless someone asks.
I do not feel pain anymore even though sometimes i see a little blood on the toilet paper.
Also sometimes, i feel a little pain during toilet but it is something like a pinch.
here are the things I tried and failed to beat the pain and also the things helped me to sit down without pain.
1) The success factor : Diltiazem cream( Bulls eye) - I think this is the one cured all.
PS: When you go to a doctor never let them put their fingers inside. Fissures are visible to them if they gently play around.
2) Keeping it clean is very important. A bidet with cold water helps a lot. You could buy a portable one for around 60 dollars on Amazon.
Earlier I tried;
1) Smoking weed - Increased the constipation however mentally it was helpful for me to get into a meditative state( I will explain this later).
2) Fiber diet + Real Apple Juice (no concentrate) - I can't say it helped because I went to toilet more than I used to.
3) Masturbation - No help at all.
When you are in pain, try focusing on your breathe and each time you exhale, think of(or order) your blood steam rush in to the anus area. You will notice a bit relaxation there. Recognize it.
Then imagine your anus expanding freely. As if a light wind blows through it, it would expand easily without any force.
Something like a jellyfish moving in the current.
It is hard to explain, but you are mentally able to relax the muscles if you focus.
All the best, stay strong and be hopeful that human mind and body is a miracle and it can get through anything.